Don't waste your time, don't wait any more...!

A short lived love story...,


He got up early in the morning (5.30 to be precise) and it was bright sunshine outside. Early morning, as usual opened up his laptop to see updates on NDTV and browsed through his mail and face book. Suddenly noticed that She was on line in G-talk. He has been in deep love with her since college days and now it has been many years since they first met. He wanted to express his love to her for a long time and every time the fear of denial and consequences stopped him from proposing.


Now, today all of a sudden something in him kept telling its gono be today ... do tell her. Yes, he had to frame is first official proposal in G-Talk, and this is how he put it in words..
At last....!
He: "I dono how u felt,but i definitely missed both of u. i was thinking is there any way we would get married ? do u think ?"


She: " ha ha ha, ena aachu???, enough of joking...  hoi...what suddenly??? i dnt know wat to say.. we ll be friends... call up"


He calls and she talks about the birds in her tree and her sister'd marriage proposal and asks of his future plans over the phone, as her mom insist's her to get ready for the day form behind. As usual he is heart broken, he did not expect a yes any ways, and terminates the call.


Thinks to him self, " what else does she want...?"


 He  : " will you consider? I can wait :( "
After a day's break,
She:       "Jus wanted to tell dnt wait..."

He:        "Really ?"

She :      "Humm..."

He :       "Y?"

She:       "got to be practical na... so y.." 

He :         "Up to you my lord, i done my part, if u want to hear it from me let me know, i ll call....!"

As she terminates the call, he is filled with tears but never cried.... He sits alone thinking, "what was I doing all these yrs....!!, If this was going to be the end, I could have moved on long back. Y din't I ask her long back??? " Smiles to himself....

So boys, if you have to clarify things ask up ASAP, otherwise your love story will end up as a comedy, to which you need to sit back and have a hearty smile at your self..!"

I still belong to you....!

You hurt me so much, and how do you still make believe that i belong to you!? I hated you so much. But, hate is always followed by tremendous love... isn't it? So it just means I loved you so very much. I didn't even want to see you in images, but now, how did things change?   You can not expect life to be a straight all the time, because it is not...! I will be as supple as the wind,  allow all things that come in my way with great courage. Life is right in any case. Yes, if you call on me, I will be there for you, till the end. My heart is as open as the sky!

A true fan of DADA!

Dada - My super hero!

'Will miss you Dada'

I am not a big fan of cricket. But a great fan of Saurav. There are loads of complains about Dada. He creates tension in the field, on field and off field politics etc,.. He is not in great form at the moment. He has not played first class international cricket for more than a year. He has been dropped out of the IPL 4auctions, which means he will not play for the next 2 years.

I was so very sad to hear this...  I was thinking to myself, why do I like him so much? what's so special about him, specially when he is not performing well? Immediately, people call me an emotional idiot with no brains! No...... The only thing which keeps us still a fan of him is, he never ever gives up! He is who he is, in what ever state of mind, will never be a puppet in someone's hands. Will always remain a superhero in our hearts. Well done ! bravo! 'Fight, the battle is on, and will never finish' that's what he's taught us. "Saurav is never gono give up, and that's why we always like him!"

When do we feel nervous ?

An act of selfishness makes us feel nervous. ummm?
1. There are hundred different things you can do for your well-being and your own happiness. That is certainly not defined as a selfish act.
2. You can do something to yourself just because some one wants you to do so. Even then its not so bad, because its just self sacrifice you do for your happiness.
3. Some times we get trapped between two different people, where you want one to act to the desire of the other. This is really selfish, and causes nervousness either ways.

Snow in London on these days

 Let me tell you a story, this is not the real incident, its an imaginary story based on the real incident.,
        One of my most loved friend form school days(P) wants my other close friend(K) to attend gym classes. This is the mistake which I did. I insisted (K) to attend the classes because I wanted to impress (P). I knew (K) was least bit interested. Now I am worried that (K) is not listening to me and (P) would not be very happy with me. Then over time I am also worried that I am imposing something on (K) just because I wanted to impress (P). In both cases, even if (K) attends or not, it creates nervousness in me. and has resulted in this stupid blog!

So........ never ask any one to do something to make someone else happy. I was asking myself, 'If someone does it to you how angry will you feel?' hence, No.1 is fully accepted, No.2 is still OK but No.3 never do in life...!

Happiness is within ME!

Hyde Park_London( Photo:Dinesh_me)

Happiness is within me, I just understood the whole concept based on which it works. Its so very scenic everywhere around you. Where ever you are there is a thing of beauty somewhere around. Its your own discretion to go around and find it. ' A thing of beauty is a joy for ever '. And its that thing of beauty that kindles the happiness in me....!

Truth is boring !!!

           Speaking the truth always is the most difficult thing to do in this world. At the same time, truth is also the most boring thing ever. I am used to telling lies, just to make the person sitting near me a bit more happy. Then to maintain that lie, a whole lot of interesting drama happens. In this regard, recently I had a conversation with him, which is worth while recording and sharing...!

 Control and manage human existence in this world?

           When you don't speak the truth, a negative emotion called guilt comes into existence, which is usually  accompanied by another one called fear. . . ! To surpass these negatives in a easier way, my grand mother usually preaches me 'always speak the truth, truth is next to god!'. This is when he asked me the question 'What do you call as truth? what do you consider as truth in this existence?' According to me, Truth is what ever is real, happening, fact and numbers. I thought for a second, I could not explain truth in more realistic terms. We always need an example to explain things, don't we? but he asked me not to explain this using examples..! 

           Then, he told me, 'Truth is what you believe in. Not every thing in the world can be quantified, proved. Most of the things, we can only just believe. When you hear from people, read from books, see in action; we just believe things and imagine that it is real.' And according to me what ever is real is the truth, but then he tells 'its all that you have believed'. Looks like both of us are in the same plane, but after that he told. ' by practice you can start to believe any thing and then your truth becomes different from my truth.' This is when I got baffled, many new questions...

Have I believed in what he just told,? (is it the truth?)
If what he says is true, then is truth not a unanimous thing? (is it different depending on our beliefs?)
Do all these negative emotions like fear and guilt need to be associated with truth? (specially when its not unanimous)
Or are these emotions just used by almighty to control and manage human existence in this world? ( by just making you believe that you are lying... )

Lathams Architects - Job - day one experience

We were a bit late, so decided to take the 'indigo' bus from savoy to QMC. Reached QMC and waited for the red arrow bus in which  Richard was already in. He takes the bus from the main coach station. Kalpesh and me take the same bus at Qmc, which is the next stop. We reached derby and decided to stop at Mc Donalds for breakfast. As a matter of fact we were running late, and richard was getting restless. We entered the office 15 seconds late on the first day. I was the one who rung the calling bell and I dint know steve's surname and there was a lady who asked, who we were looking for?, Richard helped me this time. Some how we managed to meet steve and he showed us our work stations and he gave us drawings of five different projects which we need to work on. We made chits and picked up lots to decide who works on which project. I got the Hightfield house, Kalpesh got the denby house and richard got the derick's house project. The pay roll needs to be sorted out, other than that things are all fine. Office was a old chapel converted into an office, with great interiors.

We went to 'burger king' for lunch. Kalpesh had some coupons for 'burger king', yet I had spent more than £10/- on day one for travel and food, which is not very good. It was raining, we had one umbrella between both of us. I dint have a proper formal jacket, which is a worry. I managed to carry a rain coat. We were reading the drawings and we started to make the autocad models. Steve asked if the sketchup models could be reused for the day-lighting analysis. But no, Richard said 'definitely not'. I tried to, but it was a big a big hassle, so no no ..... Thats when we decided to call it a day and walked back to the bus station and took a red arrow back to Nottingham at 5.35pm which reaches Qmc at 6.15pm. We walked 20 minutes from there to home. Mihir says that he has got more than 150 rejections till date for all the job applications that he has made randomly. Even Rinesh backs up what Mihir just told. I have not yet applied for jobs properly. Today, I decided not to go to ASDA to get the new shirt as I would manage, wearing the brown shirt that I had brought from India, for work tomorrow.

Evening I went to Forest fields leisure centre at 9.10pm for swimming. I spent some time at the sauna as well. It was a bit late but a real good experience :). As long as I enjoy this and as long as I burn enough calories I am happy. Still I have got some pain in the legs as a result of heavy workout yesterday, hence I decided to skip the gym session earlier. Cycled bak home. Rinesh, yamini and Mihir had cooked dinner. Food & Friends -TV serial on Rinesh's laptop(2 episodes) is a nice combo. Casual chats among we 5 and went up to my room, slept off....! got work tomorrow. good night!

My day - 8th June 2010 ( some pages from my dairy )